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Thursday, December 11, 2008

Can I be honest?

Would you please take a moment and pray for me today?

I do not even know who reads this...maybe just my mom?

I am down and discouraged.  No particular reason.  It seems as if Satan attacks me most when my husband is away.  I can't stop crying this morning.  I feel very alone, worried, afraid and so scared. This adoption process is so hard!  It really feels like a roller coaster.  I know what we have been called to do, but it is not easy.  There are so many "unknowns" and "what-ifs."    I have been up since 5 am, reading my Bible, praying and still feel empty.  I need my tank filled.    

Thanks!
K

5 comments:

Robin said...

I read your blog and I'm not your mom! Sorry you are having a tough day. We all have them. But God is faithful, He will see us through. Hang in there!

Cindy Foote said...

There are some things that only other adoptive moms can relate to - I'm am so relating to what you are trying to say... the adoption journey is such a vulnerable one and Satan attacks hard in the most vulnerable moments. This road is, for sure, an uphill climb. It zaps you of your energy and joy so very easily. But, for the joy that is set before you - you will endure and you will make it out of this dark hole. I am praying for you today. Hope deferred makes the heart sick and I am well aware of what that feels like. I'm in this with you. I'm not down today, but I may be tomorrow. You are not alone. Jesus is faithful, true and good and his plans are always better than our own. May you find rest and strength for today and use this down time to pray with the full emotion of the day - don't hold back and pour out your heart to Him. Love and blessings on you this day - Cindy

nell ann said...

Hello, new friend! I am so sad to read that you are feeling down! If you're free this afternoon, let's meet for coffee and to chat. I'd love to send some encouragement your way!

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Ali said...

I totally know what you're saying about your blog. My mom is generally one of the few that comment, so I have no idea who reads it. I know what your talking about with the waiting, and there are bad days. But God's timing is perfect, so use your time now for something fun/good/useful. Rent a movie, reorganize a closet or just cuddle under a blanket with a good book. When I get that down, I do my best to hand it over to God, and then I escape in a book. But that is me. Find your happy place or comfort because it's just temporary and it'll pass. And check out that big bright moon, let that lift your spirits. It is proof of God's unchanging faithfulness. Think about how many days, seasons, hundreds of years that moon has shone upon the earth. Anyway, that's how I get out of a funk :)

MOM said...

KARA:
MAYBE YOU WERE SAD BECAUSE AVA WAS BORN TODAY. ABBY SAID SHE WOULD BE BORN IN DECEMBER. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME. I LOVE YOU, MOM